She was the kind of happy from being loved right
Except “right” isn’t exactly the word
She was loved the way she desired for her unique and wild soul
There are many ways to love and not all of them fit
She had love that was safe yet it pushed her to the brinks of herself testing her limits of patience and giving
She had love that held her along adventures to new and exotic places
Not only was her provocativeness loved but it was desired, yearned for, celebrated
Her love cuddled with her on rainy Sundays and danced on tabletops with her on random Tuesday nights
This love dived into depths with her and became a flashlight
It was honest with her, sometimes bringing her to tears
Compassionate too, seeing the best of her and believing in it
And not only did this love fill her but she was able to match it
Her magic had good use here
She filled them up too, like the sunshine
Her warmth was healing to them all
And together they reached the closest thing to God
I AM A JOURNEY
What are you doing?
“Flying”
But you’re falling all over the place
“Is it not the same activity at a different stage in the process?”
SEPERATION OF SELF IS THE ONLY SIN
Everyone knows you don’t fight your demons
You love on them
GREEDY
More surrender
More trust
More partying
More deep conversation over wine
More honesty
More communication
More embracing the “fuck ups”
More screams in ecstasy
More loving every person we meet
YOU WERE SENT IN THE WRONG DIRECTION BABE
The answer is not doing more and being more. It’s stripping down to what you were before the trickery came in preaching lies of conformity, safety, and smallness. It’s all so simple really, so simple that it seems wrong. Like there has to be more to it. The core of you, the part you hide, the pieces that feel too weird and embarrassing to reveal is what you’ve been searching for. You chase the success, the money, the acceptance. But the most basic and beautiful part of you underneath all the weight is your superpower. That is the magic leading you to everything you ever dreamed of. Get naked, exhale and be You. I promise there is nothing else you need.
GODS ON EARTH
Yes, I am all things
But the outside world is not my world
I will not be foolish enough to attach to the constant changes and shifts outside of me
To let my world spin by the perspective and opinions of others
That is not what the external is there for, we have been tricked
We are the infinite, not the temporary
I create, and when things fall apart I create again
When things change I adjust
When chaos comes I am the peace
Whatever I experience I turn to gold
I am my world and I allow myself to be led from the inside out
Life with its people, places and things is wonderful but I don’t make it a mountain
I am the mountain
And I let life be the river that flows beneath me
WE’RE ALREADY PERFECT AND HOLY. NOW WHAT?
Maybe the point of incarnation isn’t the karma and learning the lessons. Maybe it’s radically accepting everything we are and are not, then surrendering to the bliss of that reality
CONVERSATIONS WITH MY HIGHEST SELF…
Me: I have no idea what I’m doing or what’s going on
Highest Self: And isn’t that beautiful. This means you are fully immersed in life and that is the whole point of being here.